Updated: I tried, in this little sketch I did today, to capture the looming and overwhelming
terror of this experience. The darkness and dark blue coming over the hill is heavy with this … dark
energy that was simply huge. Still working on it.
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Overwhelming Hill Energy, colored pencil, Regan Lee |
A few years ago I was driving in a rural area not too far from home. (Oregon.) Just out for a drive, nice day. Going further out, up a hill. I pulled over at the top of the hill to enjoy the view. Uphill side, valley below, delightful. Behind me, hills looming, and trees. No homes, no buildings, just out there. And yet, as it is in this area, only about twenty minutes from "civilization." Anyway, standing there for not more than five minutes, when suddenly, I had the most disturbing and, all right, frightening, experience.
One minute I'm happy, enjoying the view, next moment, I'm
terrified. I mean, literally, frightened out of my mind. Overwhelming sense of fear, terror, danger. This feeling was mine, yes, being afraid of something, but that "something" was coming at me! It was huge, roiling down the hills behind me.
This was no panic attack. I've had true panic attacks, and this was nothing at all like those. This was something I've never experienced before or since. (Although, quite similar to an experience I had at night in a graveyard.)
I could almost hear a voice within this huge energy wave -- and that's what it was, an unseen but most definitely present wave -- that in very clear terms did not want me there. I had the crystal clear thought put into my head: GET OUT!
So I did.
For some reason, and to my surprise, there's a nagging Bigfoot connection in my mind to this experience. I personally don't immediately associate negative or threatening experiences with Sasquatch, though I'm aware of those stories of course. Why I have this association I don't know. Aside from my personal opinions on negative Sasquatch encounters, this experience had nothing to do with any kind of sighting of a Bigfoot. Or anything else. I didn't see anything, in the physical. No UFOs, no ghosts, no apparitions, and no Bigfoot.
I think this energy was some sort of nature-spirit energy, or force. Maybe something having to do with some of the forces responsible for the disappearances David Paulides researches. (
See the "Missing 411" books.) (And I want to make it clear this is my speculation on my personal experience, and nothing Paulides himself has said.)